I really wish radiostorm.com's hardrock stream wasn't being intermittant this morning.

Honestly, all I wanted was some nice hard rock to start my day. Something not on my hard drive, and which I've consequently heard fewer times (though many, since they change the playlist with a glacial pace).

Wow, that was some whiny bullshit. Going to a pretty good college, using their network which is pretty sweet (esp. compared to home), sitting here doing mostly nothing till class at 1...yep, whiny bullshit.

I've often wondered: everyone has problems, right? I've often wondered if some people's are less valid than others. I'm speaking for myself, here. Seriously, I've had sucky shit happen, sure; but overall, I feel it would be dishonest to write something like "I've had my fair share of problems". Sure, I'm a lonely fuck sometimes. Sure, I've never really had a romantic relationship work out. Sure, I get down sometimes. But honestly, I wonder if I've ever really had the same amount of shit that other people have.

I know, comparison doesn't really work here. It's like the whole "good person" discussion; you have to fit your own bill on that one - comparison will get you nowhere. I don't know. It just feels sometimes like I've never really had to deal with shit.

Then again, other times, it gets to be too much, you know? Which is why I wonder. I mean, if things are probably not as bad (yes, faulty comparison again), why is it that bad feelings can crop up anyhow? I guess people all have the capacity for the same emotions and such. I was just going to say that that kinda sucked - but I realized as I went to type that that just isn't true. Most anything that is common among people is good. Too much already divides us, which is strange, since we're really not all that different.

I sound all optimistic and stuff there. Believe me, I have my pessimistic moments. Recently, I told people on two different occassions that I'm not down with the Libertarian Party because I don't trust other people. [I really should learn more about them before I say things like that. I know vaguely that they're all about giving people as much freedom as possible. But I could be way off in how that plays out. The point was that I don't trust people enough to think everyone should be totally free to do as they please. Think about it, you'll see that's not as harsh as it might sound at first.]

Overall, though, I suppose I am more of an optimist than a pessimist. However, I try to be a realist and a pragmatist. Those can be mistaken for pessimism (especially in light of the fact that depressed people tend to have more accurate evaluations of their own abilities - thank you psych prof). As for liberalism and conservatism, I'm more of a liberalist. [Yes, that's somewhat ironic after the statements about the Libertarian Party - whom I promise I will look up more info about - hush.] And yes, I'm just dropping -isms in a self-mocking way, if you didn't notice (people often don't); I realized starting in how ridiculous I was sounding. At the same time, the above are more or less accurate statements about my personal views.

Liberal and conservative are somewhat silly labels, in many cases. I guesss maybe I'm more of a moderate with liberal leanings. I dunno. The point being, I'm not an extremist. I'd like to think I'm generally welcome to people offering their opinion and trying to sway my own, too.

Or maybe I'm just a long-winded smelly bastard who needs to shower and eat and do a little work and go to class and so on. Ad nauseum? Ad astra? I did notice the first Saturn pics from Cassini were released. Yay for it not blowing up on launch with plutonium on board (which I go along with NASA's assessment of it having been a low danger of contamination anyhow; spose I'm not really qualified to have that opinion, but it seems consistent with my other patches of knowledge). Bummer it will take another year and a half to really start to work in the Saturnian system. But space probes are cool.

Speaking of Saturnian, I've been a little curious about what to do about Christmas. Not believing anymore, how should I work that? I figure the gift giving is more an American thing than a Christian thing now anyhow; besides, the origins of that practice are in the Saturnalia pagan celebrations anyhow. Those were at the same time; they had to pick some date for Christmas, so why not overlay a pagan celebration? [Come on, give it a minute. It never mentions any date in the Bible; and would shepherds really be out grazing their sheep at night in the middle of winter? I realize it's the Middle East, but still. Somebody or other made a much more detailed argument for why the date would be really more in spring or early summer, I think. Ah, whatever. The point being, this traditional date for the feast was picked just to be the same time as Saturnalia.]

Ok, the point of that was that I'm pretty sure I'll still be doing the gift-giving bit. Sorry to ramble.

Ha. Ha ha ha! ha HA! Sorry to ramble...I kill myself.

Which is a whole 'nother topic, one I don't feel like getting into here.

If you've actually read all this, congratulations. I think. I must depart on another day's journey. Fare you well, until we meet again.

Good day, eh.

I'm Pondering:
adelejoy
bebelua
confusedgit
dietcokegirl
extempthis
femmeproject
funnyfaces
genghis-jon
girls-suck
goodlovin
guildenstern
iamelated
indigoangel9
ington
jrocks
marilynstar
mayamimi
mcclain
millionfaces
mrstaypuft
nudeplatypus
ozmodiar
singingcynic
starletmit
tennisdiva
the29th
twiceblessd
wonderchai

I'm Perusing:
strong bad
diesel sweeties
CARS
AtAT
bbspot
h2g2
acts of gord
blue euphoria